Today is Sunday February 16th. My husband and I went on a lunch date to celebrate Valentine's Day. As 2 working parents, dates are very rare for us. While we love to spend time together, at the end of the day, we are literally just happy to be be home with our kids.
While getting ready, I asked my husband if he had any requests on what I should wear. He told me to be comfortable. (I didn't expect any other answer, I was just curious)
If I am getting ready to go on a date, I want to look and feel sexy - confident and comfortable in whatever I choose. I want him to be attracted to me. I want him to desire me. We've been married for almost 15 years and I want him to want me. But at 34 weeks pregnant, weighing in at the most I've ever been, sexy and attractive is not how I would describe myself. While other women feel great in pregnancy, I just don't.
I hate the extra weight gain.
I do not like how puffy my face looks.
I miss wearing clothes with zippers and belts.
I need to dye my hair and fix the coloring.
Yes, I'm grateful for this baby. I love our unborn child and am happy for this beautiful gift from God.
However, getting ready for a date while being 34 weeks pregnant is just hard!
After much debate, I decided on a comfortable pair of jeans, a top that showed off a little cleavage and a pair of white sneakers. The final look:
Is this my absolute favorite Valentine's Day look ever? Nope. Did he and I have a great time while out? Yes, absolutely. It was a fabulous date. Is this our last date before the baby? Yup! Am I looking forward to the day when I feel myself again? HECK YES!
Is this just a season? Absolutely.
It's just so easy to get caught up in the IG/Facebook world of perfection. I need to remind myself that these feelings are just temporary. It's more important for me to embrace what God has put before me and walk in his love and grace. My absolute favorite Bible verse of all times is:
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
Ecclesiastes 3:1
The time for pregnancy is now. And next Valentine's Day, I will be in another season. Until then, I'll just try to embrace every moment. :)
